Room 19

I’m looking out the window of a second story room at the St George’s Rd motor inn

It’s 43 degrees and I can see the heat rising off the giant hovering KFC bucket across the road 

This is just another summer, 

Of the 32

Or 57

Or 78

That will happen in my lifetime. 

The clouds are blocking out the sun but I know beyond them there is expansive blue 

Then endless black 

I want so badly to be at peace 

I want you to save me 

I want to not need you 

I want to not need anyone 

I want to shut the fuck up

I really want it to rain 

And then maybe I could take off all my clothes 

And stand naked on the main Road 

Until they take me off somewhere and give me some

Lovely drugs