Preston 

Lying on a park bench on High Street

Looking at the sky and trying to convince myself I can’t fall up 

Listening to Adrianne Lenker and thinking about how hard it is to stop wanting for some unknowable thing. 

I googled “reasons not to kill yourself” and the familiar sponsored lifeline link popped up at the top of the search results. 

I wonder if they have to pay to put that there or if it’s just good SEO

I wonder if I shot myself in the head with my nail gun would I die or just get brain damage. 

I think I might be having a “hard time”